I've been pretty numb about it. After all, the last time I saw her, I was so stricken by her condition that I not only knew the end was near, but I hoped it was, to end her suffering.
Still, it's starting to seep in. She was a wonderful, kind human being, a talented photographer and cycling enthusiast, whose eyes would twinkle with childlike excitement when something interested her. She was always looking for ways to be nice to and help those around her, and she was not yet forty years old.
It's not just a loss for those of us who knew her. The world can ill afford losing such a loving, amazing person.
I wish I still had the confidence I used to that after death comes a better place. Sigh.